I think my mind’s eye is actually catching up with my weight loss. Now that I have settled into a smaller size (even though I am not at goal yet), I am more used to what I see in the mirror. And I am starting to feel “normal”. Those of you who have been or are very large know exactly what I’m talking about.
I was looking through some boxes yesterday and found a couple more lovely pics that I actually liked at the time (?????). Like I could hide being 250 pounds with a cute outfit or a big t-shirt.
It’s like I don’t recognize the old me anymore. And I feel shame and embarrassment about the old pics, but you know, I have always been the same person inside. It’s really difficult not to regret the way I looked, and thinking how I wasted my 20s and 30s looking like that. Well, most of my 30s anyway – I did start the journey when I was 36. 😀
I swear I look like Humpty Dumpty in this picture. Or like a Weebils (anyone remember those?)
Hard to believe that I now look like this:
Weebil’s wobble but they don’t fall down. hehe
I still have a little fear about showing my “big” pictures. I am still 50-60 from my goal. Maybe as I get closer I will. maybe?
I’m a “scare”ty cat…
oops, lookin great! 🙂
Thank you for this post. I really understand everything you wrote. But remember, you life is never a waste of time, no matter what size you were. It took me a long time to figure that out. We still have family and friends who loved us and counted on us when we were obese. How we are on the inside doesn’t change. How we look now doesn’t change who we were inside.
You’re awesome. Love this blog. L
Haha, 1 more thing..
You have officially been “tagged!”
Wow! You look fabulous!
You are such an inspiration to those of us who have so much to lose!
Thank you for sharing your life with us!
Thanks everyone!
Dave – what does ‘tagged’ mean? Or should I be afraid to ask?
What an inspiration!
The pride you feel over your success far outweighs the embarassment you feel over the ‘large’ pictures. You have done so well in your journey and the pics are a great way to really SEE your journey…as well as serve as motivation to others.
Well done!
Hey Lori, Yes I know EXACTLY what you are saying. I am enjoying ‘looking normal’ too, and it is becoming my normal more and more every day.
I have a question. How did you get those old photos of yourself onto the computer? I don’t have that many before photos, but want to post at least one so people will know i am telling the truth!
Oh yeah, thanks for tagging me. I’ll try to post today.
I just wanted to stop by and say that I’m amazed at your accomplishment. I’m just beginning my weight loss journey for the second and final time and was searching for inspiration. I gave birth to my 4th child two weeks ago and I’ve decided that its time to start living a healthier lifestyle. Your pictures are amazing!